Late brunch.

A few days ago I met up with a dear friend of mine for a catch up at a place
called Melange in Crouchend. Inspired from Southern France, Italy and Spain,
this place brings holiday and sunshine inspired dishes to you. We ordered a
latte ofcourse with super green salads with halloumi and fries. It was pricy
but super yummy and a nice treat once in a while.

Going back to therapy again.


Waiting in the waiting area as I wait to be called in, I'm feeling nervous 
as I haven't been here in a long time due to unseen circumstances. To be 
honest, I don't know how I should feel. I think to myself, what am I going 
to say, have I improved or regressed. Dammit, I just realised I forgot to do
my questionnaire before the session and now I feel more anxious than before 
because I don't want to be a disappointment. Regardless this is for the 
benefit of my mental being and it's a good thing that I'm here and to be 
fair I have come along way due to therapy so I shouldn't have anything to 
fear. But when you have been away from something for some time and have to 
get back to it, it can be scary as it's like doing something new again. Will
these feelings go away or will they linger I wonder?

Woke up feeling somewhat positive.

It's always such a nice feeling to wake up feeling positive and not so 
anxious. Today I woke up with no problems in my head, ready to take the work
day on. Although knowing how life loves to throw hurdles at you, it probably
won't last long knowing how humans can be. However I'm going to embrace this
moment for what it is and enjoy it even if it's for a short time.

Good afternoon, embrace yourself to my period rant.

Does anyone else hate going to work on your first day of being on your
period? Yes it's a little TMI but that's reality, I've always disliked being
on my period especially on the initial heavy days with constant back aches,
feeling sick and having no energy. It's worse because I work in retail and
have to be on my feet all day, only 6 hrs today thank god but also kill me 
now, put me out of this misery. What also annoys me is that I have to go 
to the loo more often but no one seems to understand that at work and think
I'm slacking off but I swear I'm not, I'm just paranoid. I'm sure many can
relate but that's still not comforting me but the end of my shift which I 
haven't even began is. Something you will begin to say to yourself a lot if
you work in retail is hopefully my shift is drama free concerning me which
is kind of insane and shows the environment you work in, almost like high
school. Well, I need to go, wish me luck. I will need it.